The mysterious rishta part 1

So for those of you who have no idea...I got a sort of strange marriage proposal...more or less it is still in the making, the whole rishta and it came out of nowhere...well basically it came out of a certain direction. It came out of boy A's direction. Boy A is the one I'm involved with at the moment.

Boy A and I met on the internet, boy A is the friend of a female accquaintance of mine(it seems she is married to his cousin so I was told by boy B). So we talked and met eventually at his hairdresser salon, at that time he was still with his German girlfriend, he told me he had no idea why he was with her he didn't love her and he was just the "fun type of person"- needless to mention their relationship ended a week after he and I first met. So boy A and I are just involved, he made clear he would not marry a "woman who smokes, dates and has no family sense", I don't mind I don't like marrying hypocrites either.

Boy A is half-Indian so therefore he has a huge family in India, his cousin X happened to see my pictures on FB via someone else's account(I am still unsure if that is true or just an invention of lies). Cousin X took a great liking on my physical appearance and asked Boy/Cousin A to copy(or as I'd call it to "steal") my pictures, faithfully A followed X's order and told me 2 days ago "I sent him your pictures" when I asked when that had been he said it was weeks ago.

So last week boy A constantly stressed me "Let's meet please" I was in absolutely no mood to see A(our last meeting had been disastrous and I refused to speak to him for days and it took him a while to get why). I eventually agreed and A introduced his mamu(maternal uncle) to me. All 3 of us went having pizza and A's uncle was keen on asking me a lot of questions he told me at the moment he was making sure to arrange his nephews marriages- obviously to Desis only, as non-Desi women are not able to keep a marriage to a Desi man stable- A's uncle knows it well, for he had been married thrice and it never worked with these European ones...Now that uncle wants me to accompany him and possibly A(YES him too!) to India in a few months time to get to know that cousin X. Cousin X- I do not know much of him apart from the fact that he has my pictures and is green-eyed and supposedly he studies something. I don't even know WHERE in India he resides nor do I know his age, A "thinks" he could be around 23. However A cannot be trusted, A has his very own plans concerning THAT marriage between me and his cousin...

The next meeting between Mamu, A and me is on the following weekend. Lets see what happens...

Final exams, frustration, university ideas or apprenticeship?

So I am all confused and frustrated...

frustrated because as usually I simply don't manage to study and this time it is FINAL exams, it is just a few weeks more to go and then it could all be over and done with, but no Sultana prefers being lazy, listening to music, chatting to her friends and dreaming about the mysterious rishta that has come up(I'll post about it in detail later once I myself KNOW MORE about it)...

I don't understand why I'm so lazy, why can't I get up and study for what should be the most important thing of my life right now? Is it because I took the decision to go back to school quite late and are now far more advanced in age than my fellow classmates? Or is it rather for I do not know what I should do after school is finished? I assume it is a mixture of both plus my very own personal problems, things that got me into trouble and took away my concentration for studies...

There is also the question as to whether I should pursue studies at university or try and find an apprenticeship, I'm confused and I wish I could seek advice from somebody, however today my friend told me something that hit the nail "Whenever you listen to other people's advice you mostly end up doing the wrong thing. At least it was like that in my case, I took THEIR wrong decisions. You should always follow the advice you were to give to another person." I sense some familiarity in her opinion. I always CARE about what others have to say/think about me, I never manage to find my own spot, out of my own insecurity I follow what they say but I end up frustrated and unhappy, but this question concerns my future in life...

Main problem is, my father retired 3 years ago so there is not too much money to financialise fancy studies that I might even quit after a while(you never know with me as my nature and likes are changing rapidly), so the idea of bringing money home is quite fancy and it gives me a certain responsibility(something which I supposedly do not possess according to my dad)...I do not have any idea what I should study, I thought about Indology but according to him that's useless, jurisprudence or languages are two other options, jurisprudence is hard and you have to study A LOT and I'm a lazy bum...languages I love to learn them for myself but interpreting will bore the heck out of me...

As for an apprenticeship, fashion and make-up interests me a lot, though I don't know if I'll like it enough to be doing it forever...

I guess I'M JUST REALLY CONFUSED...