So I am all confused and frustrated...
frustrated because as usually I simply don't manage to study and this time it is FINAL exams, it is just a few weeks more to go and then it could all be over and done with, but no Sultana prefers being lazy, listening to music, chatting to her friends and dreaming about the mysterious rishta that has come up(I'll post about it in detail later once I myself KNOW MORE about it)...
I don't understand why I'm so lazy, why can't I get up and study for what should be the most important thing of my life right now? Is it because I took the decision to go back to school quite late and are now far more advanced in age than my fellow classmates? Or is it rather for I do not know what I should do after school is finished? I assume it is a mixture of both plus my very own personal problems, things that got me into trouble and took away my concentration for studies...
There is also the question as to whether I should pursue studies at university or try and find an apprenticeship, I'm confused and I wish I could seek advice from somebody, however today my friend told me something that hit the nail "Whenever you listen to other people's advice you mostly end up doing the wrong thing. At least it was like that in my case, I took THEIR wrong decisions. You should always follow the advice you were to give to another person." I sense some familiarity in her opinion. I always CARE about what others have to say/think about me, I never manage to find my own spot, out of my own insecurity I follow what they say but I end up frustrated and unhappy, but this question concerns my future in life...
Main problem is, my father retired 3 years ago so there is not too much money to financialise fancy studies that I might even quit after a while(you never know with me as my nature and likes are changing rapidly), so the idea of bringing money home is quite fancy and it gives me a certain responsibility(something which I supposedly do not possess according to my dad)...I do not have any idea what I should study, I thought about Indology but according to him that's useless, jurisprudence or languages are two other options, jurisprudence is hard and you have to study A LOT and I'm a lazy bum...languages I love to learn them for myself but interpreting will bore the heck out of me...
As for an apprenticeship, fashion and make-up interests me a lot, though I don't know if I'll like it enough to be doing it forever...
I guess I'M JUST REALLY CONFUSED...
Ok first of all is there any way you can default your blog settings to ENGLISH! lol, most of the world doesn't get this language :P
AntwortenLöschenSecondly, thank god for a post from you! welcome to the world of blogging!
Thirdly, you sound just like me when i was deciding my future! now, this isnt advice, this is what I went through myself so maybe it gives you some idea. I am lazy with studies too. I tried choosing the easiest subject rather than a subject i had interest in purely for study reasons :P I ended up doing Computing from School to Uni and eventually got so fed up of it I took a 180 in career and went into primary care management through other available courses related to that. i ended up in that purely through luck and opportunity but that's a different thing altogether. what i would have liked to do (but i didnt have the option at the time and trust me i would have done that if i had) is backstage theatrical makeup. i love art and makeup is a fun form of art if put in theatrics. once you do that you have so so many options available, theatre, model agency contracts, private clients, or even films and media etc. as you said you love fashion and makeup, it's an idea to look into it! you don't necessarily have to be running a clothes shop or beauty parlour, you can do MUCH more interesting stuff with it. and for a part time job you can always work at a beauty counter for Mac or Bobbi Brown or something along those lines.
Chin up love, things can only get better.
@Hina :S where can I change it from German to English I cannot find it! I thought it was in English :S
AntwortenLöschenBTW you really sound a lot like me :D I guess I'll see what comes after getting my degree because that is what I really wanna focus on right now. Stay tune the next post will be on that rishta thang :P
like a situation i was in , and i am still in the same situation ... no way out ,,,
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